So many offing crazy dreams. I had my first ever pregnancy dream. I think I also had a dream inspired by the American Horror Story episode I watched recently where someone got an abortion (maybe it was me?) and I also had a dream that I had to be rushed to the hospital from my large home on a dusty ranch while my boyfriend was playing a big concert and he was actually the singer of New Found Glory. And I died in that sequence. In one of the other sequences, the hospital was a large white rounded building high up in the air with the set up like an airport with lots of different areas connected by long slender passageways. I met with an acquaintance and left cory for a bit and went to a meeting. We were hearing the president speak (not Trump), and lots of people were like laughing at some kind of joke about Ben Carson being in charge of some revenue department and what I could gather about this position was that it had kind of like a head-position and then a vice position but both were important because they allocated money to organizations etc. And the person with that job would make a lot of money. At one point the person I arrived with was no longer with me and I was with a tall slender woman with curly auburn hair and people were dispersing from the meeting but she and another man were still chatting and asked if I could stay a bit and then started implying that I would have the vice revenue position and I tried asking questions about the budget because I was really just trying to find out more information about the job without them knowing I didn’t know what the job was. I was reprimanded a little for being caught up on small details so I stopped asking questions and then I started going into labor etc.
I had another dream, in my large ranch home where I was having a party and I think I had rented boat loads of animals and at the end of the party I had to figure out what to do with them, but some of the animals, like a terrarium filled with different pocket pets, were kind of gross to be honest I didn’t want to touch them to figure out what to do with them..
I’m guessing most of these dreams happened because I watched AHS before bed.
Craziest dream I had was I woke up (IRL) and went to the bathroom and I was trying to think of what time it was. I was actually trying to figure out what time it wass before I woke up, I was lucid dreaming though. So as I was lying in bed, I thought I can find out what time it is by checking my internet browser history to see what time it was when I last read an article. 4:00am. I got to the bathroom and felt great I had slept so long without interruption but I still felt tired and then I realized that I had been dreaming.
I woke up at 2:40am. I had relatively restful sleep the rest of the night. My pin point strategy helped me through yesterday until I got to my pin point. Maybe it was because as soon as I got to trivia, Johnny hit a women in the shoulder while trying to move an extra chair to the table. I watched it happen, it didn’t seem that bad, Johnny tried apologizing and the group of middle aged people looked appalled like Johnny had spit on her face and stomped her foot. I felt sad the rest of the evening and struggled to make conversation. When I did try to speak, I felt like I wasn’t talking loud enough to be heard so I often felt excluded from conversations. This morning I had a bit of adventure when Moses saw a large beaver in our backyard, but once I tried to get dressed and tried to wear those damn shoes, I became enveloped in sadness that followed me all the way into work. I tried to set my pin point before leaving this morning, but the best I could come up with is that I will work out in my favorite new yoga pants and favorite long sleeve teeshirt and then come home to spend time with moses, maybe take a long walk, curl up in bed and read.
I have an achey head ache and my eyes are tired from sobbing in my car.
But the pinpoint will prevail.